pewpsicle

hmm.. i keep askin when life will look a lil more promising, n it still hasnt -_-

signed up for my spring semester
taking:
-statistics
-anthropology/archeology
-beginning drawing
-yoga
-communications

n i tried enrolling for philosophy in the winter semester but i think its full : /

it was so awesome though i went up to the mountains with my friends to smoke some marijuana and like honestly it felt amazing like i was getting high on life haha

melanie & sean are datingz hehe ^__^
i KNeW it!

still working on that job...

Relentless

Ive learned you cannot live happily unless you are truthful to yourself in making decisions.

My friends are calling to smoke right now...

Should i smoke? Or stay home for the night applying for jobs online or at least concocting a method to get out of this depressive state of not doing anything with my free time! D:

Id like to see myself working a job happily, finishing schoolwork, while searching for a career.

I havent been on the track that i wanted to be on for awhile now, i feel like i have no control.

ive always believed, You cant travel west if youre facing east.

So... ima try facing west & say no.

Maybe ill give another few shots at that guitar

each man is the architect of his own fate... D: cool quote sorry i just saw that haha ^_^

hi

hayg uys
i wrote this song (: its pretty kewww
i been jus singin jus to enjoy lately

guitar still broken -_-

11/11

today at 1:11pm on 11/11/2009 i made a wish to finally be hired for a host position at the elephant bar. Relentlessly for the past few months, i've been searching for a host position. An interview scheduled around 2pm, appeared to be to busy seeing as how it's veterans day... No cigar.

Honestly, ive been dreaming too many love stories... The "D" string on my guitar broke, a sign of the devil or how stupid i am.

Although girls come by easy, none seem to last. I want to have sex and make love, but, you can't love a one night stand.

... Brighter days where are you?

I'm not sure if ive hit rockbottom, but im struggling to pay a parking citation, adding an essay due tomorrow; oh yeah, the free-masons dont like feet. fuckers.

Figuring out your career/profession is hard, aswell as finding a successful and fulfilling relationship... a continuous relationship of old friends would be nice too, but it seams each other's live's are spirling in opposite directions.

It makes me sad. its november 11, 2009. and i look for better days.

im in love with a stripper

mornin fellas(: november 1st wahoo!
things hopin for this month
-job
-accepted freemason
-continue writing

last night was wild ;3
hope yall had a good halloweenie!

saturday morning

time

View it exactly, and feel cold
measure it by the sway of the trees
and sense enjoyment, at-one-ment.
waiting for it to pass can be an eternity; if forgotten
time is a gift
while many open it with the past or future
few enjoy the present


jus felt like expressin muh feelings

The Dream feat. Rihanna - Livin' A Lie

just thought id upload some photos from today... UHEKNEE is takinga bath:3... heeheh =p im so sleepy thou.. zzz goodnight when you read this((:<3

in transition

what age is it good to move out? I been wondering that lately especially...

cuh the atmosphere my parents present is utterly unhealthy to happiness. While conversation is reduced to "how are you" or "is the food good?" I realized well-practiced responses are depressing. Its either that or group activities consisting of vegetation at the highest degree - television.

I kinda wonder how my parents wanted to change differently from their elders, an important question bearing all our young minds.

An immigrant from England, my father, a self made man who believed in hardwork and trust came to America in pursuit of "The American Dream" or in other words an obsession for material gain. While growing up, i distantly remember him always in search of what he "didn't" have...

Looking at him now, he isn't the easy-going father i once knew. Not a laugh or a giggle - forced smiles, stinky eyes, and most noticeably an inability to love or share feelings. At the age of 70, his thoughts consist of time and money, while worrying about tomorrow, rather than enjoying today. Interactions are nasty and dissapointing.

I do not give my parents enough credit, maybe i am just heated over recent events... Sorry pawps, but theres more to life than tv!

somewhere fresh

Hi guys, I decided to move to a new a blog due to insignificant abilities on the older one. I have been taking photos, drawing, and doing a lot of thinking lately. Still no job, but i wont give up. I've just finished reading The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown, a great book i highly recommend it. "... Brain candy of the highest quality," says Chicago Tribune. It's actually opened up my mind to a lot of things...!